I had a mini “what-am-I-going-to-do after college” crisis today and it was horrible! I wanted to vomit at the thought of graduating in May. I guess that it’s time for me to start prioritizing and figuring out what it is that I do want to do after I get my B.A.
Get my credentials?
Teach for America?
What I did figure out though, is that I am most likely staying in the Bay. And most probably in Berkeley. I am in looooove with the studio that the boyfriend and I are renting out right now AND it’s a steal, so we’re most definitely probably going to stay put.
In all honesty, it’s a bit weird and becoming a “real” Norcal/Berkeley resident. Just the other day, I got my very own Berkeley City Public Library card. It’s just one piece of plastic, but then again, it’s also one baby step into becoming a true Berkeley-ian. I should probably fix the address on my driver’s license, and the only thing that’s keeping me from doing so is that I want to keep getting the Southern California resident discount at Disneyland.
Anyhow, blah blah blah. I signed up for classes for my last semester and just took the last set of midterms for this one, which means that I only have busy work and finals to look forward to and then BAM! It’s over.
Seven months and graduation is going to be here in no time. So excited, but I seriously need to figure out what I want to do with my life.
I woke up with the worse pain in my throat the other day and after countless dosages of acetometaphine and ibuprofen, it’s still there. It’s so difficult for me to swallow, talk, and breathe with my mouth.
I’ve never been so afraid for myself, my whole life.
I’ve pretty much let myself go this past few weeks. I look horrible and I feel hella gross. I guess that it’s because of all the binge eating from school stress, constant beer drinking, and lack of gymming. I’m not down to feel and look this shitty though and I learned my lesson.
So now, I guess that it’s time to get my ass back into shape. Other than starving myself (yes, I’ve fallen victim to it before) I feel like the only way to do it is to eat healthier and to start working out again.
I was asleep for most of the day today. It’s already 9PM and I’ve only been awake for ~3.5hrs. I went to class from 8-10AM, slept, and woke up at around 3:30-5PM to make a late lunch, and slept again. This isn’t healthy at all. I guess it’s because of all the midterms and tryingtofigureoutwhattodoafterIgraduate stress.
Plus, I’m terribly homesick. I miss my family, especially my nephew. In all honesty, this is probably the longest streak that I’ve ever had on not going home. Because for the last 3 years of college, I’ve been pretty consistent of visiting home every month or so. But this time, since Jose moved up with me, I thought that I wouldn’t need visit that often (since the reason why I did always fly home was to see him). I was wrong though. I miss the excitement of boarding a plane and flying 10,000ft above the ground. Miss the expression on my nephew’s face when he sees me after not being able to for ~a month of so. Miss my mom’s cooking. Miss driving. Miss sleeping comfortably, knowing that if the world ended right then and there that at least I’d be with the people who I really love.
It’s going to be a while since I go home again, I think. Since Jose is pretty much working fulltime in his job, there’s a pretty small chance of him being able to get a full weekend off to drive home with me. We don’t even know if we’ll be able to go home to celebrate Thanksgiving or Christmas with our family.
I guess that we’ll just see how this goes.
And at least Skype was invented. Tonight, I got to use it to chitchat with Sebastian for a while. He showed me his Robin costume for Halloween and the apple basket that he made in class.